Sleep

Sleep....

When will it happen? I can honestly say that it has been years since I slept through the whole night. I'm tired. Chris is tired. When will it happen?
I don't know how to make it happen. Can a person "make" it happen?
I feel like it is important for Ben to learn how to sleep through the night but I don't know how to teach him this life skill.
For so long, and still really, there have been things going on with Ben that make it difficult for him to sleep. Reflux. Ear infections. Wheezing. Asthma. So we really never know what is going on. If you could tell me, "he is perfectly healthy, there is nothing wrong with him.", then I would feel better about letting him fuss and cry a bit more.
A couple of times when I have tried to let him "cry it out" I have gone in after a long time to find him wheezing and needing a breathing treatment. I can't tell you how guilty that makes me feel.
Plus, he doesn't eat. Other then a handful of times, I can tell you that he is pretty much exclusively breastfed. Still. At 13 1/2 months old. I will talk more about that later though.
So, what do I do? I need sleep. My baby, um toddler, shouldn't be waking up to nurse 2-4, sometimes five, times a night. He needs sleep. Chris needs sleep.
I do realize that in a few years, maybe 20, I will look back and think, "it wasn't all that bad" but for now....
I need sleep!!!!